Thursday, February 24, 2011

One Week

This past week has been an emotional whirlwind for me, for several different reasons, but mostly just the overwhelming feeling of leaving everything here- my whole life, my comforts, my family, my boyfriend, my friends, my favorite foods, my messy car, my comfy down comforter...I feel like I'm putting myself in an uncomfortable situation on purpose ha who does that? It's like this scary jump that I have to make and the only way I'm going to make it, or make it positive and amazing is with God. Putting myself in that situation where I have nothing else to depend on but Him for comfort. I think that's a huge chunk of what this whole journey is about, is learning to depend on Him more and more...eventually for everything.

Dear Lord,
Prepare my heart and soul for whatever you have waiting for me. Keep You in the front of my mind. Reveal yourself to me in all Your glory. I am your handmaiden and your servant. You are all I want. Fill me up.

I ask You, precious Lord, to send Your blessings to all my family and dear friends who have made this possible. The fruit of their support will surely be some wonderful fruit :)

Thank you for my wonderful parents. I am truly blessed. Be present in their hearts always.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Two Weeks

I officially have an e-ticket in my inbox from Los Angeles to Manila on March 3rd!! Waaahhhhh!!!!!!
I could not be more excited.
I have no idea what the Lord has in store for me.
My heart could not be more willing.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Joyful Joyful

The other night I paused Gossip Girl and was talking to Cameron about plans and life etc. and I ended up in tears just thinking about how great God is for pulling everything together. I don't think I've ever been SO incredibly happy. Praise God, seriously, just for making the unthinkable happen. The more I turn myself over to Him, the more he blesses me with such a deep joy. I just had to share that because this happiness has been so prominent this week-

There is a new beautiful babygirl in the Chadwick family, Grace Elizabeth. Austin (Cameron's brother) and his wife Becky have brought such a bright new soul into the world and the whole fam is just gushing.
Cameron also just signed his letter of intent for a football scholarship to Robert Morris University in Pittsburg. My Grandma is going far out of her way and spreading my letter to I think just about everyone at her church, which makes me just wanna squeeze the love out of her. Kevin and John both got big awards for waterpolo and are bringing their friends to youth group and one of Kevin's friends is actually getting Confirmed in the spring.

Point in short is just that there is so much great stuff going on- big and small.

1 Corinthians 2:9
"...No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him..."

Lord, I am on fire for you. I am so in love with you. You are so Holy and so worthy and only You could provide this intense happiness that is in me. I cannot wait to see what you have in store for me. My heart is yours and only yours.

Lord watch over Rasta girl and T and Maria's kids. Prepare their hearts for the wonderful families they will be brought into. I pray for the team that is going to Uganda and Ethiopia, that we can all come together and do your will, whatever that may be. We are your servants. Thank you for blessing me with amazing parents who have passed on so much wisdom and taught me everything they know about you. Thank you for Cameron Chadwick, strengthen us with your spirit and drown us in your knowledge. I love you with everything. Amen.